I have included in this website a few of my favorite devotions for Our Lord Jesus Christ.  When you mediate on all that Jesus Christ has suffered on this Earth and even what He suffers now in Heaven seeing how many souls are lost in hell, there isn't enough that we could possibly do to make up for His pain.  To think that He did this all for us and still as we continually offend Him on a daily basis, His arms are still wide open waiting for us to repent and come back to Him.   Now that is love!  We must pray for His mercy and help.

I had the following experience about 2 years ago.  I was in the midst of crisis within my life and I felt desperate.  I was working in Chatham at the time.  One day I just felt that I had to find a local church and go during my lunch hour and just sit there to pray.    I went online and found 3 churches but there was one name that I felt that would be the one I would try that day.  I walked in and the church was empty.  This church had a small room off to the right side of the Altar where they keep the Eucharist for adoration and prayer.  It was meant for me to be there at that moment because I felt a pull and I kneeled down and just closed my eyes and started to talk to God.  I remember crying and just talking to Him and saying I can’t take my life anymore, I felt an overwhelming feeling of complete desperation that at that moment, I completely humbled myself and told God to please help me.  Then with my eyes closed I saw Jesus’ face. He had a crown of thorns on his head and his face was all full of blood and his eyes that gazed back at me were full of pain and sorrow.  He had his head tilted to the left side.  Then I felt in my soul the following words, “Look at me…Look at everything I have suffered.  Your suffering is nothing compared to what I have suffered for you.”  Then His head started to move farther away.  I was able to see his shoulders with his arms extended.  That's when I understood that he was nailed onto His cross.  This vision was so intense I could no longer stay looking at Him so I opened my eyes and it all disappeared.  An overwhelming sense of peace and strength came over me.  I felt His presence and no longer felt alone.  I also felt ashamed of complaining to Him after everything He has suffered for me and for everyone.  He is so compassionate and merciful that He still gave me the strength to carry my cross even though my cross is a mere spec compared to the one He carried for all of us.   Besides prayer, I also just keep saying 'Jesus, I trust in you' over and over again during the moments when I feel overwhelmed.  It really does help!